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January 2013

Fantastic New Music I Discovered Today Thanks to Rdio's Heavy Rotation Feature

Rdio might be my favorite internet thing right now. Best $10 I spend every month.

The "heavy rotation" feature highlights what your Rdio network is listening to most. Today I just went to clicking and discovered new music. Delightful new music that makes me giddy.

Today I discovered:

What else should I be listening to?

The Result at the End of Sesame Street's Genius Twitter Updates

My pal Teresa is right. Whomever runs the social media accounts for Sesame Street is a WIZARD. 

Why is that? Because today this happened on Twitter

And why is what happened on the Sesame Street Twitter feed so fucking awesome? Because they had fun, took a chance (clogging up followers' streams) and executed the whole thing flawlessly. Result? Sesame Street gets a crapload more followers. 

Conservative companies with conservative social media rules that don't allow for experimentation are missing the bigger, more valuable picture. And lots of fun.

Chewed-Up Calamari Ring

I don't know how Michael K. of DListed posts as much as he does while CONSISTENTLY making me laugh so hard I get the sideeye from my co-workers.

I mean, this just had me choking on my juice:

This is extremely good news for fans of uncut dick and fans of dick of every kind (aka the team I'm on). More uncut dick for us! I've never cared if the peen is naked or wearing a Slanket. It has never mattered to me. I've seen some scary-looking uncut peen and I've seen a cut dick that looked like it was wearing a chewed-up calamari ring as a necklace. They botched that shit. 

I don't go to DListed for the celebrity gossip. I go for Michael K. 

How I'm Doing Today

LightsBeen feeling a little off-center today. Been feeling a little ho hum.

No real reason, really. Nothing I can pin down under a thumb. Probably something to do with a face someone made or a reponse taken wrongly or any number of things I've ascribed in my head that do not exist in real life.

I'm traipsing on the border of full-fledged anxiety. Keeping it in line by remembering how much of a prisoner it once made me. An angry, vengeful, frightened captive. Today I walk the razor-wire fence of fear, but only peer in for impulsive glances.

That I can find myself on the outside looking in rather than tossed about and sucked under by the current of worry and dread is an evolution I have clawed to achieve.  I have not won, but I am no longer helpless.

I think back on those who suffered due to my struggle, and it breaks my heart. They cannot know the me now without remembering the me then, the me that turned my neuroses into weapons. Casualities of an inside war.

Today has been just okay. But it' s long from over. Later I'll have dinner with seven wonderful people at a fancy restaurant that has been featured on TV for its fine cuisine, and with this food I will drink fine wine and laugh and share and give and take. I do not fear this event in the ways that once would cause me to flake out an hour in advance. In fact, I arranged it. Made all the plans myself.

Letting go of embedded fears has left room inside me for others. Not just one other on whom I am fully dependent. A whole host of others who enrich my life and keep me bouyant and happy. Others who will not only fit in the space left vacant by the nervousness, but actively keep it at bay. People who will not only take me out for shots of hard liquor when I am in tears, but buy them for me, too.

Anyway, today has been just okay, wherein just okay is a damn sight better than so many of the days that came before.